I like this phrase. It’s how I’ve been feeling the last few months, especially these last few days. Unfortunately I didn’t make up this, I got it from Rob Bell’s Velvet Elvis.

But as I think about the fact that something holds this all together, I’m filled with a joy. A joy that is ultimately the fact that I know there is something so much more than me. Something that is so strong and powerful that it makes my heart beat faster, it makes my mouth curve into a smile, it fills me with excitement for the past and the future. 

Fills me with excitement for the past. What do I mean by that? I truly believe that everything happens for a reason. I know that’s so cliche, but I do. I honestly, wholeheartedly believe that God has a plan for us and everything happens according to His will. I’ve seen it happen in my own life as well as people I care about. The way in which I’m filled with excitement for the past is that I know the things I have endured these last years, months and even days will eventually in some way, work in the plan that God has for my life. And that makes me smile. It gives me an inexplicable joy actually.

I laid under the stars the other day. While the sky wasn’t filled with stars, I still felt the awe that uncontrollably comes over me when I bask in the wonder that is the open sky. The awe that comes over me when I know I’m in the presence of the Creator. I’m filled with an awe of just how small I am. An awe in which God is showing me that He holds this all together.